NYE RESOLUTION!!!!!!!!

1. open up

2. socialize more

3. take any chances and opportunity. don't say NO because you (I, why I use you?) feel like "naaaaah enghhhhhhhhh" goes to number 1 again: open up

4. WHEN THERE'S A WILL, WORK IT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5. show emotions. why I always keep things to myself?? what's the use??? *tampar*

6. be a hardworking one (look up to your idol! HARDWORKING BBS)

7. don't be a gengsi one. show much affection! (but keep it cool.....lol)

after I fulfill this, I hope there's a way to fulfill these wishes too

1. FIRST ROW TICKET FOR SHINEE WORLD CONCERT (and some bonus, like handshakes, hugs (LOL), or kenalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan (this goes wayyyyyy to far)

2. success in early business (ehem, cagewear, ehem)

3. ..................................................(insert happy adjectives here)

4. settle down ahiahaihaihiahiahaihihaihaihaiahiahiahiahiahiahiahiahiahaihaihaihai

enghhhhhhhhhhh. bad wishes. what's that

??????????

HAVE YOU EVER...............

after a good day, you take a long way home alone. then you suddenly feel really miserable. there's even a pang, a big hole, in your chest. you didn't know exactly what it is. but it's really makes your face turns :( even worse, when you feel like you wanna spill it out, it turns :""""""""""""""""""(

and you didn't even know what is, so you can't share it to your close ones.

:"""""'''''

EVEN WORSE, you can't just cry it out like that. because you sleep in a share room with your sister.

oh well, let's smile to this .gif that tells you to smile :)))))))))))))

T: come on bibirnya tarik, senyum. up up up! (y)

left my mind in Jakarta, my heart in the future

Random talk- sesuatu yang seru banget ditengah kebosanan. Ngobrol aja gitu ngomongin hal-hal ga penting, atau penting banget tapi menurut orang ga penting diomongin. Apalagi lagi musim hujan gini, a small talk, gettin to know each other, minum bandreks (ga deng), rasanya jd one precious moment di tengah kejengahan P. Art (mata kuliah performance art, fyi isi kuliahnya cuma lo jadi murid High School Musical atau Glee).

OR, nonton film di pojok kelas pas ujan2

terus lagi ada satu permainan nih, namanya permainan "wawancara mendalami kehidupan orang". ya intinya cuma nanya2 pertanyaan yang biasanya jarang ada di konversasi, ya biar kenal lebih dalem aja.

terus kata Niki, dia lagi pengen bgt keluar dari semua ini, jengah. Badannya disini tapi pikirannya di tempat lain. Ke sweet getaway gitu (kaya taemin aja). Retweet Niki bgt, pengen ke tempat jauuuuh, atau at least, Jakarta.

ada yang ngerasa gini ga? jadi lo lagi di suatu tempat, lagi ngelakuin sesuatu. tapi pikiran lo ga pernah bisa ada di satu tempat itu. pikiran lo terus2an bikin rencana buat masa depan. se-exciting apapun, se menyenangkan apapun hari itu, tetep aja mikirnya ke depan terus. impactnyaaaaa, jadi ga total ngelakuin apa yang dikerjain sekarang.

enghhhhhhhhhh thanks god minggu depan minggu tenang \m/

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I feel bad for:

1. the one who always questioned who are their real friends

2. the one who stated that they dont have best friend(s)

why why why kasian temennya ga sih. bukannya gue sok punya temen banget, gue jg gatau yg gue anggep tuh nganggep juga apa ga. tapi ya kenapa mesti disort juga kaya beli baju aja ya. alhamdulillah sih masih punya temen2. soalnya ada jg gt yg kaya punya banyak temen tapi tiba2 dia bilang "temen asli gue siapa sih sebenernya."terus jadi bingung gt kalo mau curhat nemuin siapa. kalo lagi sedih mau nemuin siapa. bahkan lagi bosen pun ga enak ngubungin temen. tapi ga enak jg sih gue sering ngerepotin temen deket gitu maap yey. aduh sebenernya lg pgn numpahin semua pikiran random akhir2 ini. tapi kalo ditulis jadinya ga jelas. untung ini bukan tipe blog keren buat dipublikasikan, untung yang tau dikit. syukur alhamdulillah.

intinya gue bersyukur sama kehidupan sekarang yeeeeeeey

"that you will never fall in love"

so i had a random talk w/ my friend Nisa yesterday. we accidentally met @ mcd and we accidentally talk about it. she told about her life now, love, to be exact, and I, like I always did when I get engaged in this topic, just nodded at friend's love story.

So here it is, the BIG question (well, for me) "gimana Kay udah ada?"

Now I honestly don't really care about this thing anymore, the ömg you're gonna be 19 soon, Y U No have bf" then she said "its because you look like you dont need a boy to accompany you"

at first i was like :O.... big O. whats that. do i really look like that. i already get used to "lo terlalu menutup diri"thing, but this. it's new. she said i'm too independent, and don't event think to rely on boy. and then i cant get this out of my mind for like, 2 days (ciee uuu).

earlier this week, i told my friend that ï think i dont even need a bf so whats the rush." so i had a little research, that being dependent is not a bad thing. why you handle things alone when there's someone ready to help yauuu.

ga kuat deh nulis bahasa inggris kok kesannya kalo ga gloomy/cheesy/emo. geli (selalu geli sama tulisan sendiri) oh iya, @ayayae a.k.a Shavira bilang "duh lagu Let My Love Open the Door bener bgt nih AMIN ada yang gini. betululululul ditunggu ya siapa yg punya KEY to heart (wkwkwkkw jijay)

rain. flood. whatever you call it

enaknya curhat pake bahasa indo apa inggris?

introductory dulu ya ini ada potongan dari googlingan aquarius:

an Aquarian is emotional, the home will be all important and since they stress themselves to such an extent that they can become weak and may need rest, loads of space and freedom from everyone can help them to bounce back. The best way to keep Aquarians relaxed is to make sure they have something to do.

ga pernah ngerasa emosional, malah dulu selalu ngerasa emotionless. sekarang apa2 dibawa emosional. gampang banget ujan ya allah........

kayanya saking ga pernah stresnya, sekalinya ditumpuk, padal sepele sih ga sebanding sama stres orang2, lgsg breakdown aja. duh ini nih sekarang campuran adadeh-ini ada temen deket gue sendiri kok annoying ya bbm mulu blg bosen kalo ga dibales ngambek-terus invalid buat kelompok-terus stres sendiri di kamar- terus jjong nangis di taiwan kasian bgt- terus pgn plg ke jakarta- terus kangen rumah- terus ga pgn kos- terus bsk suruh dateng lebih awal.

sumpah ya forever young i wanna be forever young.........................................

pointless REALLY

loh......disaat akhirnya bisa buka blog perasaan udah hepi jd lupa mau nulis apa aja haha. minggu ini adalah minggu ter UP&DOWN yang pernah ada. gila naik rollercoaster tiap hari. dimulai dari senin rollercoasternya nanjak kan tuh soalnya besoknya mau nonton idola slash pacar sepanjang masa. bsknya turun dikit gara2 sempet diusir waktu mau jemput mereka di hotel mulia. eh naik lagi sampe yang paling atas gara2 ngeliat mereka lewat depan muka gue gatau deh jaraknya seberapa yang jelas :") bgt. ga bisa percaya udah ngeliat mereka terutama LTM dari jarak sedeket itu yaoloh mamaaaaa mau nikahhhh.

trs rabu rollercoasternya turun sampe paling curam sampe sakit perut mau teriak aaaaa. sehari itu 3x breakdown (hey!) breakdown (hey!) ga jelas gara2 apa. kayanya gara2 gue terlalu manja, jadi pas tinggal sendiri yang ga bisa bergantung sama siapa2, bahkan temen sendiri, gue lgsg whining bilang ga kuat. whining gue benci bandung, benci kuliah, dll yang super2 immature. padahal kenapa ngeluh coba, dipikir2 kuliah gue menyenangkan, temen2 gue super menyenangkan tiap hari bikin ketawa. tapi gue aja yg suka menghindar sendiri saking ga bisa ninggalin kehidupan lama waktu msh kecil (baca: SMA).

apa ya perasaan waktu itu mau curhat banyak sumpah lupa. kayanya gara2 nari india deh. sumpah tuh nari india sialan bgt skrg gue susah jalan. tapi super menyenangkan, trs temen sekelas jg kok ucul bgt bikin ketawa tiap hari (ga jelas). kayanya gue mau pindah ke high school musical aja deh biar gini tiap hari